You Left Me Nothing But Memories ..

Humans are strange creatures
And I'm one of this strange being
I find peace & saddness alone
I find happiness & laugher together
I find presure & ease in art
I find myself alert & unseen when quiet & out
I find pain & excitment in my out of world dreams
I wished i never woke up .
I wished i didn't have to face the world again
I want to stay in my dream
Forever
But , I know somewhere , somehow , sometime soon
This dream will end & that i would open my eyes again
And relise that it was just a dream
Just a dream
Its just an unseen shadow .

I Still Believe In Love
It was a clear summer day
when I saw the tears on your face
I knew that our time was up on us

Our moment of end was so fast
but the kiss of goodbye always lasts
not even time could fade it away

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

I'm holding the warmth of your lips
it feels like the first time we kissed
when all of the stars lined up for us

but like the wind you said goodbye
and left me alone here to cry
we shouldn't have gone our separate ways

Even though you are no longer here
there is still something between us
Even though life isn't fair
I'll never lose my trust

Just another lesson to be learned
gotta move on and not lose faith
Just another obstacle to take
live my life before it gets too late
I won't give up, I won't stay down
this is what life's worth living for
I still believe in love

Okays , i know i am like dead blogging here .
Heys , not my fault theat i'm not much of a blogger yeahs ?
Okay , so i'm finally take a bit of time off just to update you peeps on my life so far .
I GOT FULL MARKS FOR MY MATHS TEST ! :D
Somehow Mr Lim has added me on MSN , so .. Who gave it to him !?
Anyways , currently i'm in love with the song " I still believe in love " .
And enjoying my school life , other than the homework i've been getting , >>>> ART .
I mean like , so waste of paint , and like time . Super time consuming manx .
Well , but whateva uh .
I don't really mind doing art the whole day , it takes mymind off to dreamland .
But i really do hate it when i spend so much time on it , and doesn't turn out nice .
AND when i don't get enough sleep , Heys , I'm born in the year of a pig remember ? :)
I have already finish my like 2 art homework . Photos of them are up , so do take a look at them ! :)
Well , a lot of things happened so .. I cann't really remember everything though ..

Last Sat - Great Drama Dash & EDGE .
Okays , Andrea & my other group members .. WHY RUN SO FAST ??!! Its like gosh manx , like rocket like that , flash here and there . The drama we needed to act out was so retarted . I got to say like I Love You uh ! I DISLIKE Romeo & Julliet to the max manx ! GRRR ! I really want to slap myself til i faint on that day . Phew , that day was over !
Last Sunday - Morning & Evening Service
Whole day out , from morning till night . So i was really really freaking tired at the end of the day . Before Evening service , i went to visit my old home that was as some of you peeps know , its in Tamp near VFC . So yeah .. A lot of things changed , and i mean a lot ! I visited all the playgrounds i ever knew around the area . And walked the same path i used when i was still staying in Tamp to my pri school . I mean like gosh bring back memories ! :) And the Mama shop i always buy ice pop from is still there ! So happy at least that one thing have not changed uh ! :D And i couldn't remember what i did at dinner and after that , when i woke up the next morning . It was worse the usual , like  totally CANNT remember ! Gosh , i hoped i didn't say anything wierd ... God Save My Image ! Well , other than that , the day was happy :)
Monday - School & Memory Lost
School day .. Well , laughs .. Study .. Homework .. Well , yeah . Hahas , and memory lost  . What happen last night ?! I don't remember a thing ! Dam it !
Tuesday - School & GabHo Birthday
School School School . Same old Same old , but i enjoyed school nows :) Went home a while , rested a bit and went to Houngang Library to study . Saw Lixia ( who just finished her CCA ) at the bus stop . Haha , she was like " where you going ? " (ME) " Oh,  i'm going to the library to study " (LIXIA) " OMG! Don't scare me seh ! " LOL . Haha ! Than Lavette came as well , well .. Study i guess . Than we went down to buy GabHo " cake " . Let me tell you , We are a total faliure manx . The " Surprise " was like not a surprise ? Than Lavette & I haen buy the candles yet . So random thought , " use the french fries as candle uh ! " And yeah , random thought in action , SO FREAKING FUNNY ! (JAMES) " Don't you feel like crying ? " HAHA ! It was a fun day , got a ride home from Lavette's Papa . :D Thanks so much uh :D
Wednesday - School & EstherLim Birthday
School blah blah you know the story . So yeah , whateva . Jump to the other half of the day . I went cp to do research , & get MY STARBUCKS ! Finally YESH ! STARBUCKS !  MY GREEN TEA CREAM ! :D:D:D !!!! It was our Region 3/4 Dear Sweetheart EstherLim 's Birthday ! :D:D We gate-crashed at her house , i really hoped Esther liked it . And the whole thing itself was so funny , so funny that i can't really tell you how it was like ! I wonder if anyone is going to upload that Video of Esther uh ?! KEKEKE. When back to do art homework . Did until like my whole body full of paint , i bet my face had paint too . ( Didn't dare to look into the mirror knowing she would look like some monster ) Than i just DIED , like really KO ! I woke up at 3pm the next day . Still of case paint all over myself . Meaning one thing - I Didn't Go To School On Thursday .
Thursday - Overslept & Art crazy ~ Jogging Maddness
Okays , its really hard work blogging so much at one time . Hands are like tired so is my head . -.- Oversleep as you peeps know . Whole day was like art day , whole mind is just one thing ART .  I also finished the ________ someone ask me to do . Its just a draft though . Bringing it ltr . Anyways , I went jogging after all that ART , since i needed to move my body and mind from ART and get myself sweating ! :D Jogged like crazy ! ( But slow ) I loved it ! :D Watched Amreica's Next Top Model season 13 ! And this time , NO TALL PEOPLE ALLOWED TO JOIN ! All short ! GOSH , SO COOL ! Love Tyra .:D I think i can become a scouter ! I have been watching this show for like forever . And everytime i see the girls who i think will make it and got potenial , are the top 3 . So yeah , i see some of them have the face and potenial . I will be looking out ! :) Every Weekk ! :) Had a 32min chat with esther before the show :D .
Friday - School & NOW
OKays , i'm currently blogging . LAME .  Today in school i was really really hungry manx . Than in class was like super funny ! Lixia is a VTS ! " Very Talented Suan-er " ! Gosh , keep shooting manx . Than Qian Yu and I keep laughing . So retarted uh  ! Hahaha ! Anyways , i got Net Rally ltr . So yeah , I'm tired and dying . So i'm going to upload the pictures and take a nap before going to Net Rally at 645 .. Meannnsssss 6pm go out house ? MEANS I ONLY GOT LESS THAN A HOUR TO REST ! Arghs ! :(

Enjoy ! :)

 
Playing in the toliet ?

 
SuShi TEI ! :):)

Updates On Life :
Monday - Meet up with church peeps , do card & visit wake .
Tuesday - Nothing , sleep for 12h30mins .
Wednesday - Pei Lixia shopping at cp .
Thurday : - Now . >>>>>

Today was pretty sad uh .. Went for the cremation right after school .
Was like rushing and running down the stairs from art class to viod deck .
Look so stupid , but i made it in time :)
So its worth it .
Got a bit of scolding during art class from Mr Wrong , but is like never scold me at all ..
Auctally Mr Wrong quite nice uh . :):)
I got like A2 for my art hw .
So retarted ! I wanted A1 ! :(
Guess i got to work harder .. :/
Mr Wrong said i got talent uh ! , but i bet he says that to everyone . Retarted , cannt trust . -.-''
I post the photos of my Art hw on the next post ltr , forgot to take picture uh . :)

During the Cremation , first thing its really cold .
Second , i really really feel like crying .
My heart feels really really super uber heavy .
Than really really really hard to walk and breathe .
If i already like that , what if is my own parents ? Gosh , don't wanna think about it .
Third , i didn't eat lunch . Fasting .
Than during the Cremation , my tummy keep growling so loud .
Freaking embarrassing uh !
Thoose sitting around me , can hear lah . Than is like WTH .
Fouth , I really really wanna cry .
I feel really sad for Symon's family that the mother left so early .
And that at such a young age . I hope she is in heaven happy days nows ... :)

After that , I went with Annabelle and family to rivervale plaza than to Serangoon Garden .
We went to eat Sushi Tei :)
YUMMY YUMMY YUM YUM ~ ":):):)
Than off to cp , shopping .
Annabelle for her books , Me for my art things . :)
Than to Cold Storage shopping for food with her family .
Hahaha , so fun uh !
Annabelle's younger brother is so cute lah ! :)
Than i had a ride home from Annabelle's Daddy .
Thanks A Lot ! :):)
I really want a starbucks now . Anyone wanna treat me to it ? :)

( Not edited , so cool uh ! Black & Grey other than my Shoes & Jeans)

At a great time at the Suntec CC today for Morning and Evening service . :)
Awsome eh !
The church bus was like flooded uh !
Next time they need like 2 buses liaos .
I stand until feet pain . :(
Tagged along with Gab Ho & the younger sister , since i donno where to go .
Than i just sit anywhere that is the closest to where i am standing , lazy go choose sits .
Feet pain uh .
Than during the service , my bunny's mouth got destoryed by David .
So stupid uh ! Go pull .
Now my rabbit got like half the mouth . So lame uh .
Look so funny now the bunny .
I was like "Idiot !" .
Than his ears turn red , i started laughing like crazy .
Super funny ! I never see before people ears turn red uh !

Lunch time i eat duck poradgie(spell worng ps) .
YUMMY .
Than go walk walk here and there .
Went to get starbucks .
Got like discounted my 50% from Andes .
YAY .
Got my fav. Green Tea Cream (L) :)
YUMMY .
Tha slack down there for quite long , freaking hot uh the weather .
Is like , goshhhhhh .. Make it snowwwww !

Than went for Evening service .
Sit with Annabelle .
Went to toliet , i think i drink to much water liaos uh .
Had HTHT with Annabelle during service . :)
Hahas ..
Our HTHT is like super funny uh , than also listening to the service .
Going to end service liaos , i super urget go toliet uh .
Was cannt control liaos , than during the singing thingy half way , rush to toliet .
Super urget uh .
Went to eat dinner at Burger King with the youths that missed the bus .
So sad you know , i'm like the only girl again , so i got like no one to talk to when they talking about what usually guys would talk about .
Sighs ..
Reached home at around 10.45 pm .
And found out the my friend's mother just passed away today .
I'm like shocked , sadded okays .
Its like GOSH , what happen !
SADDED .
Okays , i go do my chinese newspaper thingy liaos .
Just bought the stupid newspaper from Prime .
Stanley is helping me keep me awake to do my hw .
Hahas . BYE .
Rabbit Rabbit .

SICK
"Don't make promises when you are going to break them , and get others hurt"
is what i have alwasy told myself .
I really don't want to hurt you .
But what are the chances i'm going to do them ?
Please don't promises with me .
Nothing good will happen from it , you would just get hurt from it .

I shocked myself .
I felt happy in school .
Well , at least i laugh , i smile , did feel happiness from the bottom of my heart yeahs ? :)
i'm a bit wary of some of the guys in our class though ..
But whatever , like i talk to them anyways . Cheh .
I found out a secert today too ~( SHHHH , i'm not telling anyone uh! )
Somehow , i became the Art rep again for this year .
Well , anything uh , if i get to '--' points from my total score , i don't mind .
Since , i am now focus on my studies and subject scores nows :)
A good thing for teachers uh .
But if there is anything during school got free time ,  i would usually sleep (like today) .
But i still have one problem .
"BAND .
I don't really feel i should go back , and that if i do ..
I would have to be there forever nows .
But the thing is that , Band takes up lots of time .
And that i am already focused on my studies .
I have church service .
For me , God is first is everything in my life .
So i would be half cormited to the band , since i always need to go off early .
I feel really guilty , today i promised Jolene that i would go back tomorrow for band .
But should i really go ? If i don't , i would be breaking a promise .
but if i'm going just because of Peer Presure , than i'm just blindly going for no reason .
And just be a borther there .
And i do know that there are people there that don't want to see me back anyways .
I really don't know what to do .
What should i do .
Really .
This really sucks to the max , and most of the times i would cry over this problem .
I keep trying to aviod it . Run away , but as you know i can never hide away from the fact .
Life sucks , but i believe zGod would make it better for me . :)
What should i do nows .
I got only like a few hours to think about it . "

Annabelle came to find me at the art room after her F&N .
We rushing to cp to meet Arthur & Yan Han .
After that go Lavette's house play Wii :):):):):):):):)
Gosh dam excitied uh ! :D
Chanel came too , we kinda ran to cp . Kinda ~
I ate Mega Mac Spicy ! YUMMY!!! :):):)
But i didn't eat the bread , just the chicken and kope a bit of Arthur's twister fries :D
Took the Mrt than Lrt to Lavette's place .

We played the Wii like crazy uh .
I was like so hyped up and excitied ! :D
Did i mention i owned Daivid in some games ? HAHA ! :):):)
Around 5.30 pm , David went home .
Say something about helping mummy cook uh . (not sure , focused on playing Wii)
Annabelle was doing the hw at Lavette's house .
Soon after that , she went home with Chee Kit .
Than i keep on plaing the Wii uh :D
I owned Gab in some games , He owned my in most of the games .
Lame .
Than there was this time , Gab Ho , Arthur , James and me were like playing Bumper Cars .
Keep playing the same game again and again .
Super fun uh ! Funny to max also ! :D
I mean like its quite hard , thats why its fun .
I keep see-ing myself dropping off the roof uh !
Laughed like crazy . :)
We were like "Hit You Hit You Hit You " or "Die uh Die uh Die uh" .
HAHAHAHA !
Playing the same game non-stop for around 2hours uh .
Until the dinner was done , than we stop .
I didn't eat dinner , i had dinner at home . :)
Went home with Arthur around 8.30pm+ .
I walked home , cause i live really close to Lavette ? HAHA ! :D
Good thing i do ! :)
It was so fun today ! I hope i could go play Wii again ! :D:D:D
Excitied ! :)
Okays , thats all for today ! :)
BYE BYE .
Ribbit Ribbit Ribbit .

Today is really just funny and crazy .
Went to school . (Like i promised myself)
Brought like two cups of coffee to class and drink .
Didn't sleep at all today !
i spent my resses time with some of the ex-2D peeps and Yee Xuan and Amanda :)
So long never see them liaos uh !
Missed them so much .
But Amanda looked a bit stress ..

After School , went cp with Annabelle , Chanel & Han Hui .
Han Hui , is a stranger to me , and i have no idea who he is .
Really .
A friend of Chanel i think . Donnoooo..
Never see him before uh .
We went to bookstore and buy things .
After that went Mac , saw Czech Den & Byran Wong there .
Lol , donno who they are either ~
Blah Blah Blah .
Got treated by Byran Wong Starbucks :)
Yay :)
Annabelle & Chanel too ! :)
Happy Day ! :)
We walk here and there a bit than around 3.45 pm went home liaos .

I reached home , David sms-ed me .
"Lets hang out at starbucks ! " I'm like goshhhh.... I just came back .
But i'm going back to cp anyways ,  going to buy pencil case and get some books to read .
So okay lorhs , bathe than take bus there liaos .
Mummy is like , "very busy hor you !"
Kekekeke ~
Didn't want to have starbucks anymore , cause i'm going to die of coffee sooner or ltr .
2 cups of coffee during school hours , than starbucks for lunch ?( i ate ice-cream too ) :)
Over-load of coffee manx .
Went home after i fetched Annabelle from piano class .
See , i so good rights ? :)
Went home around 7.55 pm .

At 9.30pm , i went down to PP to go jogging with Lavette :)
Jogging from Puggol to Sengkang and back .
On the way , saw Lim Kiat Hao .
Haha ! Knowing him , he should have been walking back home from cp .
( And i was right )
Went to Annabelle's house to kope some water .
And "jogged" back .
Talking non-stop uh .
Sent Lavette to the alley way to her house .
Went home to check my msn , and its flooded with chat box from every group .
LOL .
Chat with Arthur , Stanley , Kiat Hao , Annabelle , My brother  , My Gans ... Blah blah .Whatever .
Let me tell you something , Arthur is a stupid LAMEBO .
Lamebo Phua ! HAH !
Like you can win me . Blehs !
He is a scandal maker ! So evil rights ?
Just to cover his own scandal , make other people suffer uh !

Haha , okays uh , i going sleep liaos . Its like past midnight !
And i haven bathe , so i really really stink like hell .
Tomorrow going to play Wii ! :):):)):):):):):):):):):)
Excitied ! :)
BYE BYE !
Ribbit Ribbit Ribbit .

The coffee is like no affect on me at all .
I was drinking coffee during maths , cause i knew i was falling asleep .
Was trying really hard to stop myself from sleep .
And i won the battle !
But the thing is that the coffee instead of keeping my mind awake , its making me fall alsleep .
Its like GOSH , wth is wrong with me !
Maybe its becaouse i drink coffee before i sleep at night ?
Cannot be rights ? I'm weird , really weird .
I lost the war during half of the lesson during POA and English .
I met Andrea during PE , the lower sec was having resses .
And class 3C was going to take their height and weight .
The most retarted and want to aviod thing ever .
I mean like i gain 5 kg ! And worse of all ?
I didn't grow taller at all !!!! Arghs !
I didn't grow this 3 years !
Whatever , but why did i gain like 5 kg ! Its mentally killing me !
Its just crazy !
This is why i love to aviod this kind of thing , unless i maintained my weight .
Well , i'm growing , in the wrong way ! Goshhhhhh~
Today at school was okayyy ... The books were super heavy , i hope evelyn made it .
She have like more books than me , i think it was 10 ?
Sooner or ltr my back is going to break due to carrying of heavy bag .
Why i didn't put under my desk (like i would ususally do) , 4 words "They Will Get Stolen" .
Book are ex. you know !
Saving money here manx ~
Bye bye , i finished my homework so , i guess i should sleep for a while nows ?
Really bored and my msn is like dead ~
Did i say i got a new email ? :)
And is it me or does the skin of this blog look a bit dull ?
HMMMMM~
Ribbit Ribbit Ribbit ....

Hello peeps .
Yesh yesh i know , i didn't blog for like forever , and didn't post my china trip photos ..
Blah Blah Blah ~
I will do it when i get my hands on all of the photos okay ?
And not like you guys visit and tag . So dead manx , work with me manx !
Today was the first day of school in year 2010 .
And was boring to be honest , so i went home right after i heard the bell .
( cuz i was hungry )
I was pretty scared to face my old friends from 2C , so i gave them a big smile as much as i chould to cover my fears .
I met new friends from other classes , funny , gave me sweet to eat . YUMMY .
This year teachers are okay okay uh , just a few talking weird weird de ..
Lucky them , i'm not going to give them any trouble this year .
I'm going to do my homework , (if i know there is) and try not to sleep to much in class .
I cann't cannt sleep in class one , its like (HMMMM..)
I today only slept for around 30-45 mins in one of the class . Miracle ~
I should like bring coffee to class during exam period .
Paid Annabelle(L) money for the Drama Dash thingy .
Didn't see Andrea or Marcus nor Ivan , saw Elliot and Symon , But Symon was like (didn't see me when i waved)
Looked like a total idiot .
I try to blog more often .(i hope)
And i'm planing to go work (need money) .
Or i could set up an handmade type blogshop (which could take quite some time to set up) .
Hmmm , see first bahs ..
Heard the whole Album of the PlanetShakers my cousin gave me .
Its called "Never Stop" , i think its an old one .
I'm not sure , i never did hear songs nor idolise music idols , and i never did have like an music album before .
Yesh , i'm a very very laggy person . (boring as well)
And "HO" just eat papaya or drink hot water if tummy too full or something . (don't say i don't care uh)
And Sandra , You don't really need to SPAM that much when i was gone ya know .. LOL ~
Thanks anyway :)
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL THE DEC BABIES :)
And what happen to my red nose raindeer anyways ? (been wondering)
Thrown away uh ? Awww , kinda sad .. Maybe i should create another one ..
I like creating things , its fun being a creator :)
I wonder if God felt that way as well when creating us ..
Anyways , i hope i get to at least see _________ again . __________ not in the school anymore , and i didn't ask what JC _________ is going . Sighs
So Happy Day .
Ribbit .. Ribbit .. Ribbit ..